任时光...

7月6日
帮最要好朋友过生日



7月12日
跟最要好朋友一起去逛街

7月13日
去听一下佛理讲座

这个我要说一说
我发现我其实什么都不懂
听着当天的讨论
还有友教(基督)的朋友举手开问
也是问不出答不出个所以然来
於是我更困惑
离开的时候比进去听的思想更混乱
我想，这是领悟的开始吧。
我也开始明白自己其实并没有一定的宗教信仰
对我来说，
无论你相信的是什么，
只要有原则，是非分明，做个好人，问心无愧，
那就好了。
不投入佛教信仰，
是因为我无法放弃我的人生情趣，感情，任何重要的人，事，物。
因为我的人生不能没有这些，
所以我真的没有没有办法。
但是，很庆幸佛教没有一个固定的神或higher being
因为我们每个人的心中都有一个佛，
只要跟着自己做对的事情就好了。
也所以我不拒绝那么多年以来，
朋友请我到基督教去听教。
我想更明白，
也已经相信有些问题根本没有答案，而且知道了也不重要，
只要活得自在快乐就好。

相信自己。

some people call themselves free thinker.
i believe i think freely too.

也同时感到抱歉没有办法去朋友生日聚会。
有时后，我真的不想太早答应人家任何事情，
把自己给困住。但是，那天还算值得了。


7月14日-18日
开始在儿童诊所服务
我的天啊,
知道我最最年幼的病人居然是1月大而已!?
别把生命当玩笑看待
所以我那星期压力会很庞大
也同时成长了一些。

7月19日
Mass Casualty Exercise

When I saw how serious the porters ran, pushing the trolleys of bed with
injured (pseudo) patients into the makeshift wards/clinic,
when i saw the charred dolls of bodies laid in rows along the alley next
to A & E,
when i saw how daunting it was to see a fast-approaching light-twirling
ambulance,
and then later the back view of it leaving again in hasty,
i felt goosebumps on my arms,
more so,
i began to understand where the passion of my job came from,
and the energy to carry on, with a purpose.


林宥痂的签唱会上
人山人海
害我都看不见
害他必须跳高才能看见后面的人群
只能听见他千变万化的声音
在雨中听林宥痂感觉很特别
因为打伞的话会被后面的人贬
他真的很迷幻.
[病态]简直太厉害了！

So different even mroe sicker than the original cd version! impressive!

Then i walked to bras basah
my secret hideout (not anymore)
to look at books
I picked up this book [the last lecture]
little did i know that i would be leaning against the glass door, bag rested
on the wooden floors, and reading every word in the book.
It got me thinking,
of how much time i have wasted not doing the things i truely want to do,
and why do people always start living a life when they start to know their expiry.
It was a witty and simple book.


That evening, I went across the road and took the bus home,
it was still drizzling abit,
but I spent the cosy night watching tv at my favourite spot on the lavender sofa with my family,
and we talked loudly as per usual.

(别人常误会我家怎么吵吵闹闹的，其实我们说话习惯放大声音，这样才比较正常，
别误会。)


7月20日
妈去同事聚会，豪华奢侈的聚会。
我们就去找pizza喷
觉得弟弟还蛮幽默的，可以跟我比了。厉害。
然后还一起去试穿衣服，
弟弟就喜欢吃甜品，而且很不健康，
所以
I told him about transfat and renamed everything on the menu which says cream or triffle or mouse to transfat, ie: Mango ice-transfat drizzled with raspberry transfat.So i asked: you want chocolate (mouse) transfat or mango transfat
or tiramisu transfat? And we even played dare with my poor little sister, we dared her to go up the counter and order chocolate moouse saying 'I want chocolate transfat, one!'
HahHAHHahahAHHHAaaHHAHAAaaa
We do evil things together sometimes.
The waiter just giggled and served us the chocolate trans-..er.. moouse.

And my bro said:
Wahlao, liddat you no life leh!
You are trying to add hours to their life instead of adding life to your
hours.


Some brother i have.

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任时光匆匆流去，我只在乎你。
心甘情愿感染你的气息。。
人生几何，能够得到知己？
失去生命的力量也不可惜。。