给单身朋友一个大大的微笑

以前看了一本小说
里面写着：

孤单得越久
爱情越值得等待

以前我就常常这么想。

但是
现在我慢慢已经不是这么想了。
因为在我们现状的人生中已经算是完整了，
只要你懂得去追求你想要的东西。
例如跟兄妹们多一些话题了解彼此
例如对父母做出小举动透露一点关心
例如对自己的事业有所冲劲
例如对自己的兴趣而执着
例如对於自己的梦想迈进，
有人说：人因为梦想而会伟大。

就这样渐渐的，
我开始明白原来我们已经是一个完整体了，
并不需要任何额外的元素
我们本来就完整。
所以，要相信你现在已经是完整无却，
在爱情还没有来之前你就已经很完整，
别让爱情夺走你原有的幸福，它只能让你更幸福而不是相反。
同时，别为了期待爱情还没到来而觉得自己哪里不好，你不是。
希望朋友们能更爱自己，打开心胸感受你每一天的周围人事物。
因为，活在幸福当中的人往往不知道他们已经在幸福了。

=)

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最近都没有再看那本书了
好怀念呕。


微笑，怎么大？

快乐星期天

一睡到中午
太棒了
吃了个纤维麦片香蕉早餐和我最爱的英灰奶茶(是这样说的吗？)
perfect!
翻翻报纸，摆脱
我只想看到美好的事物
别破坏我的美好周末。
天气，十分十分二十分热。
热得北极的冰岛都快溶化完了，
where would the polar bears go?
不管了。
先冲个冷澡，
冰一下冒汗的皮肤
感觉，就是：能活着真好！
皮肤速时感觉爽朗，
更庆幸的是我的心情终於好起来了。
^ ^
结束七天的沮丧低落，
拜拜！



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昨天工作结束后，
就感觉一种莫名的解脱。
肚子饿了也要撑到BUGIS吃到KFC
没救了我。
然后逛一下，
就提着桔色包包和一瓶收缩水回家。
原来购物也是一种消遣。

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在bugis street有我喜欢的店： fie japan, accesorise, kinokuniya, slurping monkey (里面
有一名帅气的店员我经过都会check it out没救了我。)
在KINO 瞄到一本蛮有趣的书 [ 一个懒人的日记]之类的，在旁看书的我都会偷笑，
无可救药的无药可救。
然后越来越怕热的我就下楼买一杯pomelo ice red tea，每每都会喝一杯酸甜苦。
我不辣，所以不太喜欢辣的食品。
忘了说，昨天as i was sitting at a white long bench eating at kfc, a group
of guys came in and sat all around me, i don't know if they felt awkward
but i was utterly awkward, sitting smack in the middle of a bunch of guys
whom I don't know, eating and listening to their chatter, as though i had a virtual existence in their gossips. i have never eaten a kfc meal in 10 minutes in my life. I left them with my pepsilight in hand, leaving behind a trial of whispers from the same table. it was awkward looking back at the empty space i sat right in the middle of 10 strangers.
但我终於了解那种狂吞食物后的满足感，哈哈哈哈哈。

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my life is brilliant
my love is pure
i saw an angel of that i'm sure

心情非常差

心情非常差
一天工作十三小时没有得claim OT
把自己搞得压力过大没吃早餐晚餐
最后遇到无理取闹的病人我就给点颜色看
同事不积极明明任务还没做好还跟别人说笑
我要求帮忙一起做他却没理我
最讨厌不敬责的人
油腔滑调却一事无成
搞得心情更糟
我快受不了了
早上冲出家门时忘了关窗
妈妈警告过我却忘了也没有时间多想
最后晚上回家时才发现被繁琐在家门外
而且我心情非常暴躁
就换了拖鞋
走在街上
路灯非常沉闷
街头的车好吵
我尿急
也不知道能忍受多久。。。



不愉快别憋在心里太久不然心理会不平衡神经会不健康
想找个发泄处。。。
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不太熟的朋友靠近我身边
他的嘴他的脸充满事故气味
为何这城市为所欲为？

(我妈是个完美主义者所以不容许暇疵她的范围内只有她的原则规律
有时候，还蛮希望妈能了解我的压力容纳我的坏习惯/不完美)


更需要补眠。

ktv gathering

finally gotta meet up

marina square (again)
2pm
kbox room 20

yea

hasn't seen my uni friends for ..a long time it seems
spent a lazy afternoon singing, listening, and chatting
so nice to see my friend with her bf, 好像有一种放心的感觉
while i try to push the thought of starting work again tmr
it is like a cycle
you just have to think of ways to make it run smoother/faster/easier
i've been to marina square too many times to don't know the way out
they should just rename the place marina circle



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i lurve this song too much

henderson walk and hort park outing

family outing 15jun2008

beautiful place in singapore
i will visit the horticulture park again someday.

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花 一朵交织完美的花
变成半开枯萎的花怎么插？
花 凋谢换来一脸尴尬
不如趁早泡成一杯杏仁茶。

先报告一下

1. 刚请了病假三天：stomach flu 呕吐跟发烧到不行.整个人好像活在迷糊中三天，然后只记得头很痛这件事


2.刚生病好，就立刻去看苏打绿的签唱会。我简直就开心到爆掉，不但拿到全部人签名在我的演唱会门票上，而且我还跟青峰说‘我最喜欢白日出没的月球’而且他回了我‘那你演唱会上要注意了呕’然后还握到手，左手。然后我一整夜没办法睡，隔天还HIGH到不行。。哈 哈
觉得他们非常尊重音乐，注重听者的反应跟互动。完全就把粉丝当朋友没有距离。
也同时领教了青峰的独特刚柔嗓音。太棒了！
但是，演唱会门票让我的口袋破个巨大的洞，钱包伤得血淋淋。


3.当天跟朋友吃饭聊天，知道有人在追她，令我高兴而且欣慰。朋友人真的很好，
她会握着我的手过马路，而且她真的很了解本人，觉得跟她在一起可以尽情的做自
己，不需任何伪装或顾忌。朋友是一个没有限制的溶剂。但是，就是眼光太高。


4.昨晚放工后，性子一来，我就走进发廊去剪头发，手艺不错，建议也给得妥当，就是惊异自己的冲动，让我头发变短很多。走出来的感觉有如凉风漂移的清爽。


5.刚从楼下咖啡庭吃完早餐上来，观察了一个老婆婆，因为我跟人家用同一个桌子。觉得她有一点老年痴呆症，就看她买了食物，也不吃。放着然后玩弄食物，把黑酱油倒在印度食物上，然后用胡椒粉盖了一座山，再去买别的东西。。回来的时候还跟同桌的AUNTIE说食物还不错，价格如何如何。。突然看到这里，我的眼眶觉得热热的。。也不知道是印度食物太辣了，还是浓茶太烧，还是其实是内心的担心跟惋惜。。。我不知道如果是我们的父母亲那会是怎样。。如此辛酸。

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HaahaAhaaaha

I am finally gonna blog about 太王四神記


It has a good plot and a load of hunky actors, and of cos, a v pretty female lead too. But, more about the guys. Oh boy...

I found for 6 nights endlessly, trying to locate the singer or the title of the OST for this show... and finally, i found him:

An extremely gentle voice, with power coming out only at 2 sentences in the chorus, is what this song needs. 他的气音真的很厉害！And I can feel the emotions of pain and remorse from just the way he pronounces the foreign words. This person.... is someone that i will look out for in future... waiting for cd... woohoo!



And I like this character, HOT hot character in the show, 青龙. Also a hunky guy with straight rebonded hair, strong features, big eyes despite single eyelids, and ,... here's the best: sausage lips... my favourite!! i think he looks beautiful to me, and manly at the same time. Nose bleeds*


ok, i better stop rambling.

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YES!

=D

1 week of loneliness

Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri

I felt the emptiness of the house the moment the door bangs close. Because the sound vibrates. Because there is no one to shout at me for all my bad habits. This was the awakening call that i would be very much alone for the rest of the week. And so that was how the loneliness begins.




but, loneliness breeds independence and much thought. I boiled the water, wiped the tables, collected the newspaper and left it on the coffee table as if someone will be reading it later in the day. I changed the flower offerings at the buddha table, made myself a simple breakfast by thawing and then cooking a bunch of cheese hotdogs with raw cherry tomatoes, and a cup of my comfort earl grey tea. And before I left home in the morning, had to consciouly remind myself to check that all windows are closed, no heaters are on, no lights on except for a dim spotlight near the door, incase i felt too lonely when i came back that night, at 11pm usually.



And throughout the day at work, i missed home. The home with my family members.

I ironed clothes and cleaned the floor at 1am, when i would be watching youtube at usual times. I read the newspaper and ate my dinner at the coffee table without mummy screaming at me. And i felt wierd. But it gave me alittle comfort to wish everyone a good night when i finally retired to my bed. And a little sms everyday to mummy's handphone made me felt better as well.

And such days went on and on, luckily i had meetings both before and after work to keep me occupied. And it finally came to friday. I went to Giant after work at 9.30pm and bought a bunch of vegetables safe to eat raw. And a can of light beer for whatever reason, maybe to cook pasta with. The bottle of olive oil was too heavy to carry home. Because I wanted to make something for my family, to show them how much they were missed throughout this week.


the smell of uber fresh rossa lettuce being washed and the feel on my fingers... heavenly.

I love sweet corns, but there are too many of them here.

cherry tomatoes, left over.

crunchy carrot sticks, slippery ont he outside after shaving, heh.

one thing i learnt from watching cooking on youtube is to clear the heart of seeds from the peppers, for a better and mroe acceptable taste.

I don't consume insecticide.

and mix everything together in a salad bowl.

surprise~

left it in the fridge waitin'

And dinner was a sushi platter. easy.



And saturday was a happy day, i went to work well dressed in style. and went to harbour front after work, not really to shop but to pamper myself and be near, to the ones i love. Ate at The hotdog place and this cute patient of mine who comes to get his eyedrops weekly saw me, and smiled and said hi, with his gf looking puzzled beside him, hahaaa. And then, again i saw him at the shops later on, and he bowed friendly to me... hahaa idiot. Actually, i think my patients liked me overall. I am blessed with cute patients i guess. who remembers me.


and spent the afternoon lazing around Page one, at a bench settled under some warm spotlights in a freezing book store, with a great view of the waters dividing simgapore and sentosa. I love how the rain later fell on the wooden planks outside and bounced off the metal railings, dancing on the water surface. Came across this book called 'The World Now' which holds many amazing photos taken by photo journalists from all over the world. some amusing photos to share: (but please don't sue me for copy rights or what, cause i have no bad intentions...i dunno any legal stuffs)




korean women army (laughs the height of raised legs)



naked bodys standing for show at an empty carpark (woohoo, the feeling of openness and that reminds me that everybody is equal, and everyone should learn how to love the body they are in)










and mum called.

I was in heavens.


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The best things in life....





are free.

=D