Haiz

have been doing 24hours on-call this week
which means a few things:

1. Straight home after work (which is what I so seldom do)

2. No weekends shopping/roaming(which i took 1 week to prep myself for)

3. Alert at all times (most nights the phone rang from when i walk out of workplace, on the bus, when i am eating, when i am shitting, when i am sleeping. The worst nights saw me waking up from 10pm, 12am, 1am, 2am, 3am , 4am, so i slept 1 and a half hours and woke up for work. And the worst thing was it repeated every night from monday to sunday)

4.Handle life-and-death situations at home (one night i rang everyone I could for help, and that night, I felt so helpless.)

I felt sorry when i abandonned my duck rice at the coffee shop and ran home to look for reference for a query. I felt anxious when I took a taxi home one night handling 2 life-and-death calls at the same time.



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My freedom will return tomorrow.

Right now, I just wish to finish my duty and sleep, really sleep.