1 week of loneliness

Mon Tue Wed Thu Fri

I felt the emptiness of the house the moment the door bangs close. Because the sound vibrates. Because there is no one to shout at me for all my bad habits. This was the awakening call that i would be very much alone for the rest of the week. And so that was how the loneliness begins.




but, loneliness breeds independence and much thought. I boiled the water, wiped the tables, collected the newspaper and left it on the coffee table as if someone will be reading it later in the day. I changed the flower offerings at the buddha table, made myself a simple breakfast by thawing and then cooking a bunch of cheese hotdogs with raw cherry tomatoes, and a cup of my comfort earl grey tea. And before I left home in the morning, had to consciouly remind myself to check that all windows are closed, no heaters are on, no lights on except for a dim spotlight near the door, incase i felt too lonely when i came back that night, at 11pm usually.



And throughout the day at work, i missed home. The home with my family members.

I ironed clothes and cleaned the floor at 1am, when i would be watching youtube at usual times. I read the newspaper and ate my dinner at the coffee table without mummy screaming at me. And i felt wierd. But it gave me alittle comfort to wish everyone a good night when i finally retired to my bed. And a little sms everyday to mummy's handphone made me felt better as well.

And such days went on and on, luckily i had meetings both before and after work to keep me occupied. And it finally came to friday. I went to Giant after work at 9.30pm and bought a bunch of vegetables safe to eat raw. And a can of light beer for whatever reason, maybe to cook pasta with. The bottle of olive oil was too heavy to carry home. Because I wanted to make something for my family, to show them how much they were missed throughout this week.


the smell of uber fresh rossa lettuce being washed and the feel on my fingers... heavenly.

I love sweet corns, but there are too many of them here.

cherry tomatoes, left over.

crunchy carrot sticks, slippery ont he outside after shaving, heh.

one thing i learnt from watching cooking on youtube is to clear the heart of seeds from the peppers, for a better and mroe acceptable taste.

I don't consume insecticide.

and mix everything together in a salad bowl.

surprise~

left it in the fridge waitin'

And dinner was a sushi platter. easy.



And saturday was a happy day, i went to work well dressed in style. and went to harbour front after work, not really to shop but to pamper myself and be near, to the ones i love. Ate at The hotdog place and this cute patient of mine who comes to get his eyedrops weekly saw me, and smiled and said hi, with his gf looking puzzled beside him, hahaaa. And then, again i saw him at the shops later on, and he bowed friendly to me... hahaa idiot. Actually, i think my patients liked me overall. I am blessed with cute patients i guess. who remembers me.


and spent the afternoon lazing around Page one, at a bench settled under some warm spotlights in a freezing book store, with a great view of the waters dividing simgapore and sentosa. I love how the rain later fell on the wooden planks outside and bounced off the metal railings, dancing on the water surface. Came across this book called 'The World Now' which holds many amazing photos taken by photo journalists from all over the world. some amusing photos to share: (but please don't sue me for copy rights or what, cause i have no bad intentions...i dunno any legal stuffs)




korean women army (laughs the height of raised legs)



naked bodys standing for show at an empty carpark (woohoo, the feeling of openness and that reminds me that everybody is equal, and everyone should learn how to love the body they are in)










and mum called.

I was in heavens.


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The best things in life....





are free.

=D