Jumper

Today i started off having a bad mood, it's nearing the time of the month i guess. But I try to turn the table. And it turned out to be.. well, not too bad. still learning the ropes of working, attitude, perseverence, being receptive, being reliable, being confident, being mature... trying to be. And I really try to put in alot of effort in seeing my flaws, evaluating them then and there, and thinking of ways which I can improve. Like a positive feedback system. And I am starting to see the many interesting ways a human may grow, if we expose ourselves or subject ourselves to such circumstances. By growing, I hope to be a better person, one who can overcome one's weakness and is constantly improving. But of course, by maturing, can we then see what qualities we had, or we once have, when we were naive and oblivious... those qualities, I try to keep too. Cos they are precious to me as well. And because we can understand why some qualities do take time to develop, we can be more forgiving towards others. Why am i saying all these.. it isn't what I want to talk about. Back to the topic... some one secretively passed a message to a messenger to give me job contacts in the morning.. and I am totally surprised by this act. Whoever the person is.. I am utterly grateful to you.. and I am utter grateful to the many (I dun know how many) people out there who have been caring to me and helping me in ways which I may be oblivious to. I don't know how to thank you, cos I don't know who you are. But I want to thank you. It isn't everyday we come across people who are truely nice and sincerley concerned about others, and although I said nothing after i got the message, because I know I had to keep this a secret inorder to protect ur confidentiality, I had been thinking about this opportunity the whole morning. Thanks alot! And I think I know who you are.

The day went by smoothly, after the menacing craziness yesterday, I think today was a relief. And at almost ending work time, I received a call from a close friend about catching a movie together as we had planned the night before, i told her i could not make it on time, but work ended early..so I called her again and said let's go, and she detoured. I am really apologetic about such an off-beat, off-the-cuff, unplanned, on-the-go kinda attitude, but I really hate to plan for things too long into the future. I kinda like to go with my mood, and do things on impulse... cos i derive greater satisfaction from doing what I wanted to do most at that point in time.. I don't know why. And I am lucky to have a friend who would tolerate such stuffs... and so we met like in 30 minutes and caught Jumper, after snacking at stuffs from Cheers. Jumper was way exciting.. too exciting for a movie-novice like me. I was shreaking half the time when there were action scenes.. though my friend remained relatively calm throughout the whole show. OK, and I get to see why so many girls like caucasian guys.. I see why now.. hahahahhaaaaaaa. But I seriously think it was exciting, though a little violent and cruel at some parts. And what happened to the jumper friend in the end who got stuck at the cables?

And after the movie, I walked out feeling sleepy and dizzy from all the sitting and shreaking... we walked to the traffic light to get to the bussstop.. and my dear friend decided to part with me since I am walking to the busstop further up. some friend right? But from the traffic light, I did not notice anyone following me, until i crossed the road and walked to the building.. and got stopped by this guy who looked like he was going to ask for directions but hessitated for some time... this unknown/chinese/guy said he noticed me talking to my friend at the traffic light and wanted to be friends with me ...I got a shock and stuttered when I was trying to say no. Late at night + alone walking at a dark street + no one around + NOT VERY SHUAI = No. And after the incident.. I was so afraid he would stalk me or trail me home.. Why didnt I notice someone was following me all the time? Man....I had to be more alert the next time round, and look out for followers...this is too creepy.

Am I the sort of person who would make friends with a stranger just like that? Maybe a cute dude. hahaa. And rejection didn't look to embarrassing just now... maybe I should try it the next time i see a cute guy. I don't know.


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Today, I learn about being concern about others.